Rich Blessings and Good Gifts

Well Nathan is sick again with a cold.  We had about a week of somewhat healthy.  It has been a week since Isaac got over croupe, I hope Nathan doesn't get it.  When Nathan gets a cold, it means a lot of thowing up.  He gags on the mucus and throws up.  It also means alot of laundry.  Poor little guy.

Today was challenging.  This evening Isaac had a melt down.  . . . over marshmallows.  He was screaming, I could not get him to calm down.  I gave him three choices, one of which I was going to put him to bed.  Thank God for patience, I was so calm.  I just kept praying for wisdom to know what to do.  I just kept holding him tightly so he could not kick.  After about 30 minutes of screaming / crying, I ended up taking him outside.  I was hoping a different environment would calm him down.  He ended up getting sidetracked on why he couldnt see the moon on a cloudy night.  I love how easy it is to distract kiddos :) Then I got lots of snuggle time, that was nice.

I feel like such a bad Mom sometimes, I have to force myself sometimes to be involved and not check out mentally.  Sometimes I m just so numb, its not intentional.  But once Im in the  swing of things it all comes back.  I relish the moments.  Its so hard to go to work.  It hurts . .  But I carry our insurance.  I miss my family in St. Louis so much.  I try to not dwell on these things.  But deep inside it still hurts.  Deep inside sometimes I still feel alone, overwhelmed, sometimes angry, guilty.

On a incredibly cool note, we had a company come last night with a huge 16 foot by 16 foot movie screen.  Isaac picked Toy Story 2.  It was amazing.  I had been wanting to do this since we got home.  God knows the desires of our hearts, and blesses us over and beyond anything we could ever imagine.  Someone donated the movie package to us, down to the popcorn machine I had wanted.  God is so good.  I was so blessed to share the blessing with others.  I made lots of decorations of course.  And I have to give LOTS of kuddos to my amazing husband who goes along with my Hair brained ideas, and helps.  I could not have done it without the help of our amazinf Nanny Hailey and Shawn.  THANKS!!!

I have to also mention, my amazing Cardinals came back (from 0-6) with an unbelievable win (9-7) to go on to compete for the division champs.  They always have to make it so tense!  I seriously wanted to throw up myself!  Love my birds!  God blessed me richly yesterday!!!!  Thank you Jesus, we are so thankful.  You know the desires of our hearts, and he gives us good gifts!


I know that when I come to you, I will come in the full measure of the blessing of Christ.
Romans 15:29

Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in the heavenly realms with every spiritual blessing in Christ. 
Ephesians 1:3

If you then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him!”
Luke 11:13